Unlocking Joy, Freedom & Love: A Personal Journey to Embodied Wisdom

I feel vulnerable about writing today. I feel butterflies in my stomach, I have done a few laps of the house looking for anything else that needs to be done before I write. 

I feel afraid of not being relatable. I feel nervous because I want to write this piece. I fear that saying what I am about to say out loud, will make it go away. 

So, what do I want to say? 

I feel so happy and loved, more happy and loved and loving than I could have ever imagined. 

Then I nervously look around the room, nothing has disappeared. Phew!! There is no curse that causes my blessings to disappear as soon as I name them. 

It’s been a deep and profound few years. Especially this year, I have released a LOT of what has held me back from fully expressing myself, I have watched as fears and limitations have fallen away, beliefs that I had carried my whole life disintegrating through self-enquiry and practice. 

And even beyond being happy, there’s a sense of acceptance, peace, and aliveness in my body that feels like a whole new foundation for my life. 

I know that feeling happy will come and go. However, this foundation of love and freedom is a new and deeper way of being and living. 

As I look around my life, I feel so blessed and grateful for the life that I share with Rod. We have been together now for over 8 years, and we have lived through about 20 years of challenging lessons in that time. There have been times that I wasn’t sure if we would make it through, testing times that have taken us both to the edge and back. 

Now, I can see that each of those challenges was supporting me to grow into more of who I am. As each test occurred, I was given the choice of fear or love, contract or expand, hide or reveal. 

It’s only in hindsight that I can fully see and appreciate the beauty of what has occurred. Experiences way beyond my dreaming or believing have created such depth, compassion, understanding and awakening in my life, in Rod, and in our relationship. 

Life feels incredibly beautiful, as I see our gorgeous home, the luscious gardens we have created, and our adorable cats. 

The experiences that have shaped our lives become embodied wisdom, this forms the foundation of the mentoring and teaching that Rod and I offer. 

This is why we are so excited to share Pathway to Love: A Journey of Embodiment. It’s packed full of teachings that have had a profound and significant impact on our lives, and we want other women and men to have the opportunity for transformation. 

I don’t share any of this lightly. Left to my own devices, I may well have not written this today. But Rod encouraged me to share what is most present and alive in my body, as a source of inspiration for others. In my deepest heart, I know that if I can take this journey of transformation and awakening, you can too.

Photo from our December 2024 Community Call, "What does presence mean in intimate relationship?" Ironically, me laughing at myself, as I made a mistake in introducing the topic!